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I suppose not many people read this anymore, and given the infrequent nature of my posts I can't blame them. My last post here got a single response. It was a Russian porn-bot.

However, this site contains years of my life. Not in their entirety, of course. But a peculiar reflection of one side of my life, like seeing yourself in a tinted and curved car window. And I sort of like that. I like the idea that somewhere on the Internet, a map of the negative space left by my motions and emotions. To understand who I am from this might be like trying to understand a snake by looking at its path through the sand.

I have not posted here in months. My life is not the same as it was the last time I put anything of myself on here, not by a long shot. If I want this document to continue I should put a bit of myself back into it. So here it goes:

Work has been pretty cool and occasionally frustrating. In addition to my getting-paid-for-testing-software, I've been teaching myself programming and database administration, and I hope to put together a web site pretty soon. I've been setting aside a bit of money to buy a few months of real web hosting (big server that you administrate remotely over SSH, rather than some web-app-GUI-thing) and in the mean time I've been teaching myself Java, Ruby, Rails, HTML5, and all that lot using a shitty old Dell desktop that someone was throwing out as a server.

I'm enjoying this because it will be a chance to do something and finish it, to build something that other people can look at and say "Oh, cool. I will use this and enjoy this and contribute to this. I am glad that somebody built this thing." It's fulfilling. It's also good for my day job.

I went back to Virginia to do my taxes yesterday. Northern Virginia was strange and oppressive - not just the weather, but the families and loud children and the cars. Before taxes, Kristin and I went to Unique and she got a pretty great jacket and a skirt and I got some books and a copy of Girl, Interrupted, which I recall liking in high school but haven't seen since.

Actually doing my taxes wasn't as bad as I feared (though I'd be getting a good deal more money back if my parents hadn't claimed me as a dependent...) but being back there was hard. I hadn't had to sit down and talk something I didn't like with my parents for an extended period for years. I was struck by a really overwhelming sense of psychological nausea combined with nostalgia. It was like a headache of the soul.

But then Kristin and I went and got Pho with Hunter and Helen, and dropped by and said hi to Alex and Phil. That was a lot of fun. I've missed seeing that crowd more often.

I've been thinking a lot recently about apathy and politics and my place in things. I will have more to say on this at some point in time (if I don't post it here, come ask me in person.) I was originally going to post it all on here tonight but I need to do my nightly chapter-in-my-Ruby-book.

I've also been volunteering with a group that does an earn-a-bike program for Annapolitan children. I've learned a lot, the people involved are pretty cool, and it's overall been pretty great. I mention this because if you're in the Annapolis area and need a bicycle, we can probably set you up for pretty cheap.
Current Location: Annapolis
Auditory Emanations:: Jason is playing Max Payne
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From:weezingsoul
Date:March 8th, 2011 02:02 am (UTC)

Earn-a-Bike!

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Hey!

I work with an organization in Philly that runs earn-a-bike programs for kids! Except I work more with their racing team/as an admin. assistant.

Very cool! :)
It's good to hear an update from you.
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From:autophage
Date:March 8th, 2011 01:43 pm (UTC)

Re: Earn-a-Bike!

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Man, it's been forever - how have you been?

Also, could I ask you some questions some time about the program you're working with? The one with which I'm involved is very young (got started in September or October) and we've hit a few snags.
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From:weezingsoul
Date:March 15th, 2011 02:22 am (UTC)

Re: Earn-a-Bike!

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I'm doing all right... suuuper busy! But I'll be graduating in May, and will hopefully find a job by then and have a bit more time to do more things! You? You were actually in my dream last night along with a bunch of other Robinson Theatre people, but we were all older.. maybe in our early thirties/late twenties. I only saw you briefly, though, in the background.

I would be happy to do my best to answer your questions! Or find answers I might not know :)
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From:matthewcb
Date:March 18th, 2011 02:23 pm (UTC)
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You're right. Trying to learn about someone via their blog is usually like trying to learn about someone by looking over a photo album, i.e. a snapshot taken only every so often, and it's only an image of who they were when they wrote it, and from one side.

I'm glad to hear that you're doing well, and doing good things. Let me know if you need any help with your site or anything. Who were you thinking about hosting with?

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From:autophage
Date:March 21st, 2011 12:38 am (UTC)
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Probably Linode. Pretty good prices for pretty complete services, good SLA, and from everything I hear it's pretty painless to upgrade (low migration downtime.)

As for help - I appreciate the offer, but am mainly looking at doing this as a learning opportunity for myself. I have pretty strong skills in some areas (like the database end of things) and pretty weak skills in others (like CSS); I'm taking this as an opportunity to even out my skills and make myself more well-rounded.

That said, if you felt up for a code review at some point, that would be awesome.
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Date:March 21st, 2011 12:34 am (UTC)

What is an error and omissions insurance

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What is error and omissions insurance? Does it cover malpractices and errors? Is it included by default to the commercial liability policy?
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From:autophage
Date:March 23rd, 2011 03:39 am (UTC)
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I live with four students, though I most often head over to my girlfriend's place in the evenings (she lives with two of my close friends, with who I used to live until I ended up with enough stuff that I needed a basement.)

I work, usually a bit over nine hours a day. Other than that I'm usually around people. Life goes on and I don't always think so hard about it.

The sky around here feels about like what it's been all of my life with only a few exceptions. I'd be inclined to call it average, but it's the average of my experience, rather than the average the world over.
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